Friday, May 13, 2011

Changes....

"I got Love for my Brother,
But we can never go nowhere
unless we share with each other,
We gotta make changes,
Learn to see me as a Brother,
Instead of two distant Stranger's."


Life has to be a constant struggle. If you can't see life's changes, your living Blind.

I may not be in my mid twenties, But I am a mother, who looks out for a Child. My little guy is the one I look after, and before.

I am a married woman who wishes at times that I wasn't. Life may suck, but I would never say Fuck my life. I am thankful that God put me here for more than 20 years. Most important of all is that God gave me the strength to be a strong Mother.

I am a friend, who sees your wrongs and your rights. A friend you can come talk to about any thing, and You will always know that I am an unopened book. No one will ever find out what we have talked about unless you give me the O.K to speak.

I am a sister, who speaks of you when asked, who has carried anger inside me for you. Who will let my Gard down for you. I will throw away my life just to make you Happy.

I am a auntie, who has carried with four extra kids in one day, for no reason. I have took you under my wing, so that no one would hurt any of you. I am the one you call Auntie, I am also the one you have hit out of anger, with your words, your bad behavior, and I was there when No one but me, was there to feed you a bottle, hearing four other's cry. I have put my Son last to take good care of you, and that is no more

I am a daughter, who seems to be just a side of distractions, I am here for you only when YOU need me. I am here when you need to take out your anger. I am here for when you get home your house is spotless, and your dinner is cooked.

I have decided to CHANGE.
Every time I talk it goes in one ear, and come out of thee other. I have a voice, that no one but my enemies have heard. I have had the short string for many years, now I want it my way.

I have been called a Bitch, by them who have said they Love me, I have been called a back stabber, again by them who have said they Love me. Do I have to show them what a real Back stabbing Bitch looks like?

I have been here for all these people who have a special spot in my heart, I just cant stand it any more.

All I ask for is to be alone. In my own room, with my own son, with every thing MY own.
I just need to be listened to.

Better yet, I HAVE BEEN HERE....NO MORE!!!